the dead, ill-spoken of

sunshine prescription ran out, no refills. clouds corner tearducts, and a shadow shivers under noon skies, white walls gleam violent. as the crow flies with broken wings across a distance so great he falls. the sound of chattering teeth overpowers the jet engine drone above.

"you are a vapour trail...in a deep blue sky"

sings a distant radio from a car passing by on the freeway. a sharp buzz like that of an angry wasp follows the sad song.

now all is quiet.

a risen sun behind clouds of ash sulks. rainfall beats the earth. before nightfall, an alien light, grief-stricken, tears the paper sky; burns briefly with a brimming heart. the dead, ill-spoken of, now poison the living from pissed-on graves.

the empty playground neurons fire and spark but only invite hedonistic shadows and a moon covered in craters of malice when the dust is not swept.

this is a sphere, waking but never really conscious; an engine neglected, ill-maintained, gathering rust from disuse. junkyard life yields casket-lined results. a spectre is burned in effigy under a pile of old tires. thick charcoal smoke and the miasma of burning rubber. all in a day's work for the mechanic, whose face wears a perpetual layer of grease and a vile grin.

Pending...

New mix in the works. No real theme as far as I can tell, but I guess all of the songs carry a certain intangible (maybe melancholy?) feeling for me.


1. The Autumns- Cattleye
2. Coldplay- Lovers in Japan/Reign of Love
3. Trespassers William- Vapour Trail (Ride Cover)
4. Rachel's- Last Things Last
5. This Mortal Coil- Song to the Siren
6. Mogwai- Devil Rides
7. Grails- Acid Rain
8. Low- Murderer

funeral dirge/pseudo-pop

This is just a drone/minimal doom mix I've made recently. I think the song transitions work well and the overall dynamic and tone flows from track to track. This is what I listen to/from Youth Group in Fall City, usually, which is a 30-45 minute drive. Anyway, the track list is as follows:

1. Boris- KA RE HA TE TA SA KI- No One Grieve
2. Menace Ruine- Dismantling
3. A Storm of Light- Mass
4. J. Bannon- The Blood of Thine Enemies
5. The Angelic Process- Burning in the Undertow of God
6. Wolves in the Throne Room- Cleansing
7. Sunn O))) & Boris- The Sinking Belle (Blue Sheep)


...AND

If the mood strikes me and the weather is sunny, (a rarity here in WA) I "bump" the pseudo-pop mix, which consists of:

1. Sizzla- Just One of Those Days
2. Cut Copy- Strangers in the Wind
3. Black Moth Super Rainbow- Just For the Night (Remix)
4. School of Seven Bells- Half Asleep
5. Kanye West- Heartless
6. M.I.A.- Paper Planes
7. Gang Gang Dance- House Jam
8. AIR- Playground Love
9. Rio En Medio- Pictures of You
10. Jem- Yellow
11. M83- We Own the Sky
12. Stars- Elevator Love Letter
13. Gang Gang Dance- Blue Nile
14. Osborne- Wait A Minute

Nine Hundred Miles

All days bind. Pages stick to one another, wrapped in thin wire
But one caught my eye this week, new model homes
Lit sparingly by candles, distant fog through the window
Painted peach by the city lights.

And I thought hard about distance
Sitting outside on a damp, cold slab
Of street, smoking. Gazing upward
The teary sky no blacker than
The soot of my shortcomings
A life I thought unshouldered
Cast away.

But now, in this strange, new light
I hear mixed sounds of traffic and a voice
Unmistakeably my own, screaming over
Nine hundred miles of God's forgotten earth.

goings on

So there's been a lot of new things going on lately, so here's a bit of an update, I guess.

First of all, I'll be making the move to seattle here in a couple days. VERY excited for that, but it's gonna be a looooong drive.

Also, just finished an essay/short story entitled "dark night of the soulless," which, in a nutshell deals with a zombified man after the camera stops rolling, the film ends, and he finishes eating his final victim. I have some changes to make and, after it's proofread and to my liking, I may or may not post it here. In the downtime I've had over the past few months, I've been recording music under the moniker Sad City in Motion (or formerly known as Mans Red Fire.) I have about ten unmixed tracks recorded, and a couple new ones in the making. When I reach my destination in the rainy city, maybe I can talk one of my roommates into mixing it properly (both are musicians.)

On an endnote, I'll post the mixtape I'll be making for my roadtrip. cheers.

1.Lights Out Asia- Radars Over the Ghosts of Chernobyl
2.The Daysleepers- Stars on Fire
3.Telefon Tel Aviv- The Birds
4.The Appleseed Cast- Raise the Sails
5.Ulrich Schnauss- Shine
6./7.Lights Out Asia- x-33/Psiu! Puxa
8.The Daysleepers- Space Whale Migration
9.Telefon Tel Aviv- Helen of Troy
10.The Cure- A Forest

without shadows

imperfect like portrait hung crooked
sun spitting last glory
down
upon snowy rooftops

this gold fades
leaving behind shadows--
it's never without
shadows

the pinnacle of natural light

this, the beauty of clouds
slowed to the sound
of
contented hearts

familiarity with sorrow
only emblazons today's
victory upon the smiling
faces of travellers

wayfarers guided by
treelines and sunlight
finding home in
musty books
and coffee cups