Nine Hundred Miles

All days bind. Pages stick to one another, wrapped in thin wire
But one caught my eye this week, new model homes
Lit sparingly by candles, distant fog through the window
Painted peach by the city lights.

And I thought hard about distance
Sitting outside on a damp, cold slab
Of street, smoking. Gazing upward
The teary sky no blacker than
The soot of my shortcomings
A life I thought unshouldered
Cast away.

But now, in this strange, new light
I hear mixed sounds of traffic and a voice
Unmistakeably my own, screaming over
Nine hundred miles of God's forgotten earth.

goings on

So there's been a lot of new things going on lately, so here's a bit of an update, I guess.

First of all, I'll be making the move to seattle here in a couple days. VERY excited for that, but it's gonna be a looooong drive.

Also, just finished an essay/short story entitled "dark night of the soulless," which, in a nutshell deals with a zombified man after the camera stops rolling, the film ends, and he finishes eating his final victim. I have some changes to make and, after it's proofread and to my liking, I may or may not post it here. In the downtime I've had over the past few months, I've been recording music under the moniker Sad City in Motion (or formerly known as Mans Red Fire.) I have about ten unmixed tracks recorded, and a couple new ones in the making. When I reach my destination in the rainy city, maybe I can talk one of my roommates into mixing it properly (both are musicians.)

On an endnote, I'll post the mixtape I'll be making for my roadtrip. cheers.

1.Lights Out Asia- Radars Over the Ghosts of Chernobyl
2.The Daysleepers- Stars on Fire
3.Telefon Tel Aviv- The Birds
4.The Appleseed Cast- Raise the Sails
5.Ulrich Schnauss- Shine
6./7.Lights Out Asia- x-33/Psiu! Puxa
8.The Daysleepers- Space Whale Migration
9.Telefon Tel Aviv- Helen of Troy
10.The Cure- A Forest

without shadows

imperfect like portrait hung crooked
sun spitting last glory
down
upon snowy rooftops

this gold fades
leaving behind shadows--
it's never without
shadows

the pinnacle of natural light

this, the beauty of clouds
slowed to the sound
of
contented hearts

familiarity with sorrow
only emblazons today's
victory upon the smiling
faces of travellers

wayfarers guided by
treelines and sunlight
finding home in
musty books
and coffee cups

pathos

a devastating performance given upon waking
eyes lucid, still twisted with sleep
pathos breathing upon
my neck

an amaranth face among
glints of grey light
she smiled, sang and
exited the train

sounding the alarm
as steam so gently rose
curling into ambiguity
so i still count seven stars every
night

a restless battle

beaten, bludgeoned
back to life-defibrillated
into luminous existence
shift, shudder, tremble
praise, bow, cry
transcend cloudless peaks
to live holy and angelic
watch from aerial structure
the carnage, hatred, density
intensity, annihilation-
Redemption?
spiraling back toward
shameful earth landing
on a knife of
anguish
a trembling breakdown
of flats and sharps
rumble amidst the chaos
as demons
mercilessly moan
and the volume
grows and this
hellish pit becomes
remorse, regret, sorrow
blind and numb
in a stiff bed
of wires

melancholia

So today I made the absolute siccckest mix for my upcoming roadtrip to Seattle. (from Colstrip, Mt) It's gonna be a looong ass drive, but everything's cool after you pass Butte (ugh.) But yeah, the mix is called melancholia and the playlist is as follows:

1. Jeff Buckley- Hallelujah
2.Swans- God Damn the Sun
3. The National- Fake Empire
4. Sunn O)))/Boris- The Sinking Belle (Blue Sheep)
5. Bright Eyes- Lua
6. Pedro the Lion- Options
7. The Snake the Cross the Crown- The Contortionist
8. Wilco- At Least that's What You Said
9. Colour Revolt- Matresses Under Water
10. Tom Waits- Dead and Lovely
11. The Postal Service- This Place is Prison
12. Mogwai- Travel is Dangerous
13. Amusement Parks on Fire- Venus in Cancer
14. Death Cab for Cutie- Brothers on a Hotel Bed
15. Colour Revolt- A New Family
16. Manchester Orchestra- Where Have You Been?

Normally I don't listen to THAT much indie, but I guess I've been in a weird mood lately.